Fade

You felt blessed to have her, conversations with her were always therapeutic.

You found yourself smiling while looking at her, those beautiful eyes and the perfect smile.

You loved how she woke up happy, no matter what happened the previous night.

Then you got fed up.

Being with her suffocated you, you needed air.

You stop telling her about how your day went,

You don’t tell her about how you only had suya for dinner the night before,

About how a colleague was eating eba and beans soup at the office,

About a sun dress you wanted to buy for her cause you know it would look good on her,

About how you want to add Sunny Nneji’s oruka ti dowona to the list of songs to be played on the wedding day.

 

About a kid you saw on your way back,  the kid made you think of how your future child will have her brain and beauty.

 

You no longer call her back.

You say she doesn’t understand you.

All she does is nag.

All you want now is to be alone, you said.

You want to find yourself, you said.